Slowing Waaaaay Down

IMG_4986For many years, September used to signal a start of a busy period. Whether at school or in academia, I anticipated busyness to set in for the rest of the winter.

When trees shed their leaves and natural rhythms of life slowed down, my working tempo increased. In the last 10 years, I found myself exhausted by mid-December, and depleted by mid-March. To an extent, I didn’t mind. I came to dislike long grey winter nights in England. Spending winter months working extra hard gave me some space and time to enjoy spring.

Life has changed beyond recognition this year. I’m actually forced to slow down. Right now there is chicken pox (my daughter got it in the end). Once she is well, we are visiting my family in Azerbaijan (unfortunately, we had to delay our trip). I’ll have a dental surgery on 12 October which is likely to knock me out for a few weeks. And last but not least, we are planning to go abroad in December. It’s our birthday gift to ourselves, as we didn’t manage to celebrate our birthdays this year due to expecting my baby-girl’s arrival.

But even more importantly, my baby girl wants all the attention she can get right now. She is on the brink of crawling. Well, technically, she can already get herself from A to B by rolling, rotating, propelling herself forward, and, sometimes, by sheer willpower. I don’t intend on having more children, so this time of heightened engagement and loveliness is to be savoured. I’m giving myself permission to do just that. To slow down and to be as much as I can. To integrate all the learning I’ve done earlier this year. To go with the normal rhythms of nature, so that my being can restore itself before spring.

I’ll still blog, but probably once a week, more if inspiration strikes. I’m also thinking about introducing a weekly feature on my blog to showcase writing by other bloggers.

I love connecting with you all here. It’s exactly 11 months since I’ve started blogging and it’s been an amazing journey of growth and self-discovery. I am enormously grateful for your company.

 

12 thoughts on “Slowing Waaaaay Down

  1. Good luck on the chicken pox becoming a thing of the past Gulara, poor little lamb chop. … These sorts of things do force us to slow down. Right now I have a friend up from Cape Town who had eye surgery here in Johannesburg and my routine is all out of sync which means a bit of a slowing down of my usual rush …
    And good luck for the dental surgery … and rest up before Azerbaijan 🙂

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    • She is quite a site 🙂 My husband says her face looks like pizza – there isn’t a millimetre of clear skin. I try to stop her from scratching herself, but she rolls on her tummy and rubs her face against the bedding… Well, at least, this is it for her. And thank God I am not showing any symptoms.
      Our flight is overnight – flying out at 10pm, arriving at 3:30am UK time (7:30am in Baku), so resting up is needed before a sleepless night.
      I wish your friend a speedy recovery, Susan. I’m glad you have an opportunity to slow down.

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    • Thanks, Ula, yes, I long for us all to be well, preferably soon!
      Slowing down is the least natural thing for me. I’m a doer. Stopping scares me a lot. But… I noticed that last week I was on the brink of burn out. Thankfully, I’m learning to listen to my body more closely. I may not necessarily slow down completely. I simply took the pressure off myself. I’m already feeling a whole lot better.

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  2. Blogging is a bit of a pressure and responsibility, isn’t it? There are many good things about it—self-discovery, immediate readership, improving your writing, all of that as you say. But you do need to loosen the shackles sometimes, and take a breath. Just pop in when you can, Gulara! Ease some of the pressure. x

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    • Yes, it is, and as much as I love blogging, giving it some space helps a lot. My baby girl is not napping as much or often as she used to, and 5am starts are not happening either as the room is pitch black and short of waking her up, I wouldn’t be able to work in the dark. So, it makes sense to slow down. Interestingly, as soon as I took the pressure off myself, I’ve started buzzing with new ideas 🙂 x

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  3. Its always a pleasure to read your blogs. Winters are harsh here in Colorado too and that slows me down. Not a very favorite time of year for me but still accept it ( Do I even have a choice ?) and tries to make the best of 7 month long cold weather !!
    Hope your surgery goes well.

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    • Thank you so much for reading and commenting. Yes, 7 months of winter is looooong time… I found a temporary solution for mine – 10 days away in sun. It makes the world of difference. 🙂

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